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よかった! [Mar. 31st, 2016|01:12 am]
Faith
Well, number 5 and 7 in my list of ugh are no longer an issue.
Number 4 is only half an issue.

5. I'm level C1 in French and I only needed to be B1. TCF ANF passed. Check.

7. It turns out my best friend in France is The Exalead Grand Master.
He probably knows it better than the people who made it.
So he helped me out with the technical basics, and now I can do them on my own.
Scary project should be done in less than a week - check.

...which is good because I didn't know it until a little while ago, but the application is a demand from the Chief Sales Officer...CSO?? Scary, that.

My colleague is doing the stuff he should be now too. Wooh.
And I decided I don't care what the other people say because that Chinese super virus'll probably kill them all sooner or later. They're old.

4. The state found my name change documents.

On the downside my eye is still blurry and Stinky Kitty is still broken.
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Oh yeah so [Mar. 13th, 2016|12:14 am]
Faith
I'm pretty sure no one but Hanachan reads this, which is why I kinda stopped writing.
Also because I don't have much to say - my life is a book of boredom.

I guess I can start by saying that 2016 is absolute shit. desolee pour le gros mot, hein.
Non, je plaisante - je ne suis pas de tout desolee :P Va t'en, 2016!

First everyone around me is just stressed and generally unhappy about their life situations.
Then, for me personally all in the past month, there have been...

!. My cavity was not sealed properly 7 or 8 years back and the entire tooth rotted from the inside out. Had to get a crown like an old people. At least it's completely covered by my mutuelle.

2. I got lasik. It hasn't been too long since it was done, but you know. It's 3000 euro and I only get 1100 back from my mutuelle. So I'm short 1900 euro. Also my eyes are still healing so I can't go out so much and I have to wear lame sunglasses all the time, even at night. PLUS the left eye is still really hazy...I hope it's just recicatrised and will be better by Monday. If not...urk. I didn't know what else to do so I covered the sunglasses with children's stickers. And I can't go swimming for over a month :(
Also it's really really friggin creepy that I paid someon 1900 euro to pretty much cut my eye open while I watched with the EYE THEY'RE CUTTING OPEN. Then they burned it and I could smell my eye burning lol

3. After holding out for 2 years, I finally had to transfer money back to the US to keep paying my student loans. With the current exchange rate, 1 euro = almost exactly 1 usd. I lost 30% of the value of my money (about 600 usd) automatically. Plus I'm out the 2000 euro I transfered.

4. I'm preparing my folder for French nationality. They want a little short of 1,000,000 different documents. One of them is my name change papers. When I was 10 days old my parents removed my mother's maiden name from my last name. Anyhow, parents lost the papers, lost the reference number I would need to get a copy of the papers, don't quite know where they had it done, and don't really want to try getting it. Stress. After I get all the papers, I'll need to have official translations done for 6 of them and, from what I understand, French translation agencies charge 70 euro a pop for that nonsense. 420 euros more gone...

5. 2 days after the lasik I had my CTF ANF, the French language test for the nationality. I'm just generally worried I didn't pass because my accent in French is so bad. Hey, I've got a good accent in Japanese and Chinese. What the hell does the world want from me? French vowels! Arrrgh. Oh yeah, if I didn't pass I'll have to do it again in 3 months, which will delay my application greatly and cost another 100 euro.

6. Anyan broke her tooth. The vet said it's fine but I just feel really bad about it. My poor, stinky kitty. I'm sure it's my fault and I'm a terrible mommy.

7. Work. I have a new project at work which I accepted to do cause I was bored. What was I thinking? I have to learn to program in Exalead, starting from scratch. No one outside of my company uses Exalead. Clients are demanding, skill non-transmutable. Too late to back out.

Then, I found out from my spy friend that people I've never met before are saying I'm never at work, and when I am I take 2 hours coffee breaks and am never at my desk. They are saying I would be fired if it were allowed in France. This is..weird...because I probably put in more hours at work, working, than French people do. They just can't understand this because I stay until 9pm, don't take 2 hour lunches, and am busy speaking with the developers in their offices most of the time. French people, in general, are narrow minded idiots. They also spend all their time gossiping because they don't actually do anything at work. They may also be jealous of me cause I'm smart and, according to them, have a great body (they really are idiots with terrible taste in everything)...or...whatever. Their bitchiness reasons don't interest me.
At any rate, I'm not worried about the rumor because no one who's ever actually worked with me would agree. My boss, the developers, and everyone I support are really happy with what I do and know how hard I work. I'm just pissed that I'm not allowed to kick people in the office and tell them their mouths are useless. Allez vous en, work people!

Other than that, I've just had generally huge problems with my direct teammates (not working, incidentially lol) and my manager got annoyed with me for it. But that...well, I hope that soon that will be resolved. I think we finally agree that I'm the only one NOT at fault. Still, I don't wanna deal with this bs. I like wa, man. wa.

8. It's gonna be Trump vs Hillary. They're both dickheads.

So yeah, basically I've spent the past month with various health problems and, what with taxes and unusual expenses and money transfers to pay for my COMPLETELY OVERRATEd ANd OVERPRICEd COLLEGE EdUCATION, I'm poor. I'm even more poor because I have to wait for my mutuelle to remburse me. So...in on month...about 8000 euro poorer. That's pretty friggin impressively dismal. It's probably a good thing I can't see well enough to do stuff... ;_;

Oh yeah, the internetz will tell you "va t'en", "allez vous en", etc means "go away." lol
No. Not quite. It's a bit stronger than that.
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I went to India [Dec. 22nd, 2015|05:51 pm]
Faith
It was great, but it took me a while to realize just HOW MUCH they were raising the prices on us.
I expected 30-50% like in Turkey, not 400%! lol
Then, once I figured it out, I spent the whole time arguing with people to lower their prices.
Even for water! Friggin water!
Anyhow yeah, general rule is to tell them you'll pay 1/5 the price they ask for, and then "negotiate" up to 1/4 the price, even if the price is marked on the item and it says "no negotiating" on the walls.

Other than that, India is fabulous. I'd love to go back!
The people who aren't out for your money are so nice and the food is wonderful and the culture is really different from anything I've ever seen and...*sigh*
Yeah it's dirty in some parts of Delhi.
There's also a bunch of poverty but well, I dunno. I guess I'm mean. It didn't bother me.
Maybe that has something to do with the fact that the Indian economy is one of the fastest growing and they've taken my job, my father's job (twice), and my friend's jobs.
They'll be alright in a few decades. Plus I help CATS. Can't help everyone.

The funniest part of the trip was the burping man though, by far.
We stayed in a 8 bed hostel room for a while. Two of the other guests were really fun, but the others who came and went were not savory lol
First there was the crazy lying lady who smelled like vomit and wouldn't let us open the doors or windows to get rid of her puke smell XD
I think she was some kind of eastern european.

Then there was the burping man.
A couple hours before bedtime a family came in to the hostel - mom, dad, 2 boys, and a girl.
The girl and mom got their own room for decency's sake, and the 3 remaining dudes took the 3 beds left in our room.
The father said nothing the entire time.
He just burped and made weird noises.
I'm not even talking weird dad noises - more like hacking noises, donkey noises, dinosaur noises? I dunno. It was bizarre man.
Then he woke us up at 7 or 8 in the morning chanting in the shower.
We parlayed a bit and decided to let him keep chanting because it was an improvement compared to before XDD

Also I went to Kamir's, best place in Delhi for traditional Indian food.
It's also a hole in the wall in the Old Town for about 2€ a meal.
The fan blew chopped up pieces of bugs onto my plate XD
But really, it's worth it.

Other than that, my friend's marriage was beautiful...I really, really want to go back to see the South, Est, West, and Center of India some day.
Some day....*sigh*
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worms worms worms [Nov. 19th, 2015|05:34 pm]
Faith
Well, my self confidence is shot.
The only thing that makes this ok is I don't care much for that stuff anyway.

None of my friends were shot.
For this I am thankfull.
Less than a dozen people tried to contact me to see if I was ok.
How many of my friends who didn't get shot are really my friends?

No one wants to do anything anymore cause they're afraid of going outside.
What's the point of valuing your life if you're too afraid to LIVE?
I'm tempted to get back in contact with someone I shouldn't talk to anymore...
At least they don't let things like this stop them from living.
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Coin Locker Babies [Oct. 2nd, 2015|04:11 pm]
Faith
Hm...2 months this time.
I went to Turkey with Hanachan, and then came back and wanted to tell Hanachan, and ONLY Hanachan, all about Turkey.
Except he'd been there with me already so that was kind of frustrating lol
It's ok though because I'm going to India for a marriage in December, and I'll be able to tell him (you) all about that.
It's ok - I know you're the only one who has even a chance of reading my defunct Eljay lol

I started reading Coin Locker Babies.
It's not a feel good book, with all of its messed up characters and inexplicable, meaningless death and violence, but...I like it.
I RELATE to it much more than I would another stupid self discovery story or a romance or some other sucky "literature" like that.

The sky has been very blue this week.
It has a strange effect of making everything that stands against it - buildings, trees, people - look like paper cut-outs from a 2D world that don't really exist.
I like this.
Current theory is that we are all 3D projections from a 2D horizon.
I don't know if I believe it or not, but it's ok because it is science, and science is only right until someone proves it wrong.
They do, always, prove it wrong eventually.
Anthropology had the right idea in declaring itself not a science.
Now science just needs to have the right idea and declare itself an Anthropology.

I personally think humans are incapable of understanding anything about who we are or where we are.
I think I know WHY we are...the answer is "for no particular reason".
My favorite theory is that a group of college students had to do a project together, and 3 of them did nothing while the 4th did the best he could in the last week before the deadline and scraped a C out by creating our universe.

Surprisingly, most people have a hard time accepting this theory.
They need meaning or whatever. Well, wtvr.
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No, you know what, stuff did happen. [Aug. 5th, 2015|05:49 pm]
Faith
I would have things to write, or rather, I would have had things to write years ago.
This past month has been really hard for me.
But I don't even want to think about it enough to write it out.
At this point I can honestly say that I don't care anymore.
And in the whole of things, everything that happened was nothing.

The real problem is that now I have a black hole in me that I need to fill up with something.
Trying to find that something is the hard part, and that's what hurts.
I go to the pool every other day, do yoga again, hang out with my friends, and read a lot but it's not enough.

Maybe I'll take up singing lessons.
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Huh, again hm. [Jul. 27th, 2015|07:43 pm]
Faith
I still have nothing to say after another month has gone by.

My friend was complaining that men are cowards who are afraid to take risks in relationships.
I told her I think they just don't care enough to take risks.

Not that women are all that different though I imagine.

People. SO. ANNOYING.
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2 Months? [Jun. 14th, 2015|11:42 pm]
Faith
Woah, it's been almost 2 months since my last post.
Mom came and left, we went to Italy, and it was woderful aside from the lack of CAT.
But that's good in the end, because that means there isn't a problem with strays.
I saw 2 cats and both were evidently owned.
One was named Pierre; he was grumpy. It must be the name.

The problem with mom coming though is that it makes me a little homesick...
It's been over 4 years that I'm in France, in the same flat, and yet still at least once a week I wake up completely disoriented and have no idea where I am.
My brain goes, "dude, where is this? This isn't home."
I also have dreams about Boston.

Guess I'm a true Yankee at heart lol
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Old People and Technology [Apr. 23rd, 2015|06:05 pm]
Faith
My Aunt (well technically my grandfather's first wife? I think?) asked me to be facebook friends.
I think she's old and lonely so I said yes...
WHY do old people insist on posting inspirational quotes and giant joke pics and stuff on your timeline?
WHY??

I dunno how closely she follows my feed so I'm worried I'll hurt her feelings if I hide them.

My friend's got it worse though apparently.
His mom uses up most of his phone memory daily sending him that stuff.
At least in my case it's just facebook and facebook is crap anyway lol
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生きてる [Apr. 7th, 2015|11:57 pm]
Faith
I'm a year older. As a kid I always figured I'd be dead by now.

I am not dead btw, not as far as I know at any rate.

braaaiiinnnnsss

My brother gave me a card that said Happy Birthday dad Faith.
My mom sent me a....thing? I think you're supposed to put it over light switches?
I dunno what it is but it's a typical mom gift lol
The two of them are fabulously oddball and I miss them.

Other than that I was talking to someone on communicator today and after like, 5 minutes, I realized his name was not very French.
So I asked him and it turns out he was American.
We had needlessly been writing in French. ARGH.

I don't have much to write because I don't think anyone reads this, and even if they did nothing much is going on in my life atm except KITTIES.

kittykittykittykitty...
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