| 安らかに眠むりますように（泣） |
[Dec. 6th, 2009|11:36 pm] |
昨夜,午前三時ごろなにか不安を感じて突然起きた。
「Where's my Street of ALICE CD?!?!」
ふっと思ったら、何ヶ月もみてない！...ちょっとパニック状態。
I found it today...in the trunk of my father's car.
[How did it get there????]
The water wrinkled pages were covered in rust and blotted out, the ink of the CD jacket running in sad swirls, and the barely recognizable clock in Dada's hands blurring in a goldenrod glow with the blackened background while gastly blue streaks eddied gaudily across the glossy print.
その哀れなお姿を見つけたら何故か泣きたくなってきた。
大学生の時毎日聞いてたあたしの一番好きだったCDが...
It's no good anymore - I'll have to try to find a new one.
So excuse me while I go and cry
(and try to decide how much of that was just drama, and how much of it was really me hurting.
I can't tell what I'm feeling most of the time. Underdeveloped Humanity >_<)
My poupee is commiserating.
http://pupe.ameba.jp/profile/5KbjOKHgowww/ |
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| 太ったと思ったのに |
[Nov. 21st, 2009|11:13 pm] |
I found a pair of pants at BCBG about 6 months ago...and they were $200 so I was like "nah..."
And then I found them at TJMaxx for $90 and was like "well...."
...and got them, and then returned them because I dunno I just did.
Then today I found them at the BCBG final cuts outlet for $29...
So I got them again. And they are FINAL SALE XD Finally. They're light blue with tan stripes.
Thing is, I know I said I was fat before, but at TJMaxx I got a size 2 and it was snug.
This time I got the 0 and it was perfect...O_o
I wanted to get the suit top, but it turns out their XS is too big for me so fail.
I like my pants. But it seems I may have actually lost some weight since the summer...
Also I have no boobs so I've always had issues finding tops.
In this song, I am the one they call guys wimpy nerdfreaks for liking.
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| 撮影-The Dada thing I did |
[Nov. 18th, 2009|11:36 pm] |
Here's the Dada thing I did.
Okay, now to set things straight, I'm NOT a sports person. At all.
But there was something almost exciting about the speedways...
If I'm ever in Charlotte when there's a race going on, I might consider going.
Here are some pics of the main track and the new ZMax (the DRAGWAY...it has DRAG in it :3)
It was raining, so I brightened the pics a bit. Which is why there's the umbrella.
ISN'T IT AN AWESOME UMBRELLA?!?!??!
more:
http://www.lerman.biz/asagao/zmax.jpg
http://www.lerman.biz/asagao/zmax3.jpg
http://www.lerman.biz/asagao/motorway2.jpg
http://www.lerman.biz/asagao/motorway3.jpg
These pics were also very hard to take because I spent the entire trip in 8cm stiletto thigh boots and it's not exactly...stable...walking up the stairs in those.
I'm back in Mass now.
When I stepped off the plane it dropped about 20 degrees F
and the people dropped about 20 lbs.
I did buckle in and get some fast food - Jack in the Box - before I left though (>_<)
An eggnog shake and some fries...
I drank 1/5 the shake and then stuck 3/4 the fries in it so it looked like puke and I didn't drink the rest or eat any more of the fries.
So crisis semi-averted. |
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| IN DIXIELAND |
[Nov. 16th, 2009|11:20 am] |
Where, for the record, I was not born...in North Carolina to be exact...
1) There are SO many friggin McDonalds XD
There's also something called Bojangles that seems to be a more fatty version of KFC...
Which there are also a lot of.
You know, to put it simply, there's just a lot of fried fast food. And steakhouses.
It's a little freaky and I'm a little hungry.
(for the record, the McDonalds in my town closed because no one ever went there)
2. They're not "speed bumps", they're "road humps"...
Still being mentally in middle school, I found that quite amusing.
3. People don't drive tractors on the highway.
In fact, they do that more often in Massachusetts O_o
4. Tailgating is something that's done after the NASCAR race, not to just about everybody and anybody driving in front of you, no matter how fast they are going and which lane they are in
and PS Massachusetts drivers need to die.
5. People are...friendly (^_^)
6. Everything closes sooner than it does in HIROSHIMA even.
Like, by 5pm most of downtown is shut down. Charlotte was SUPPOSED to be big, back in the .com haydays, but after the crash it seems to have become by and large abandoned.
I'm sure it was more interesting a decade ago, but now it's just row after row of black store windows and fast food.
7. They have a beef jerky outlet (...snooooort..>XDDDD)
People laugh when you take pictures of it with your keitai(...XDDDD)
8. They have a large selection of thigh-high boots.
9. They have a large selection of overweight people (see #1)
And yes, they do have the dragway~so pics to come.
I could technically stay here a few extra days and drive the 5 hours north to VA to see Kaya perform...but I'm not paying for 3 extra hotel nights, and I'm not living in my car so... |
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| 子馬＝初恋 & ブーツ |
[Nov. 9th, 2009|01:48 am] |
Okay, seriously, I am thinking of making a Mana pony.
Because these things are impressive and I don't even really like Naruto.
Also, I am probably going to get a coat soon (it looks a lot better on a human)
This one
I need some deconstructed boots to go with it - I was thinking something worn looking, buckley, and either black or brown. Maybe 1-2cm heel, round toe...
If anyone knows of a place that would sell those kind of boots please let me know. |
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| それで、お待ちかねた瞬間が～！ |
[Nov. 3rd, 2009|10:11 pm] |
I gained about 500 Dada points today.
And I did it without the help of thongs or pony costumes or anything!~
I'll tell you more about it in January but it was kinda fun so remind me. |
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| ♪星を見つめよう♪ |
[Oct. 31st, 2009|10:53 pm] |
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HAPPY HALLOWEEN!! (^__^) |
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| タトゥー |
[Oct. 30th, 2009|11:31 am] |
This new years I would really like to FINALLY get my tatoo.
It will say "Maguro" and will be on the left side of my body right below the small of my back.
One of the biggest arguments against tatoos is that, when you get old, they start to droop with your skin and look nastay freaky.
I don't really see that part of me sagging.
And if it does, that's pretty much going to be my spine sagging, and I'll have a lot more to worry about than my tatoo.
The Hanachan argument is that they are dum. We royally ignore that one.
Thing is...I don't have the design yet. If I had some idea of what I wanted it to look like I could definitely draw it myself.
But I'm completely out of ideas. So...someone?
HELP! |
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| maji now. |
[Oct. 28th, 2009|10:04 am] |
Pandora decided to try to throw:
1. A song from the Chicago Gay Games...
2. The Teen Titans theme song.
..into my mix.
Sorry dude, not digging it. But it was pretty funny.
Sometimes I really do wonder where they get their ideas of what's related to what.
And of course they do offer explanations, but you need a PHD in music theory to understand them. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 20th, 2009|02:17 pm] |
Have you ever reached that point in your life where there is nothing you want
nothing you are looking forward to, and nowhere you want to be?
Where the prospect of nothing excites you and you just sit there and wish you were dead?
I'm not good for anything. There's no reason for me to be here.
That, I think, is ultimately "life"
I don't want it anymore. I don't want to live anymore.
I don't want to live
I don't want to live
I don't want to live |
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| 初雪 |
[Oct. 18th, 2009|09:31 pm] |
Today I went in to Boston.
They had closed off the road for a college kayaking competition or something.
It was stupid.
And it was also raining.
But gradually the rain turned into snow and I had a very silly thought.
I will not tell you what it was~
Argh. Hope to have the Dada article done within the week.
EDT: OR TODAY. YAY DONE~! |
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| PINKIE PIE?!?!?! |
[Oct. 13th, 2009|05:38 pm] |
They named a My Little Pony PINKIEPIE?!?!?!?!
PINKIE PIE??
DUMBLEAHH
OnceMy Little Ponies were girly and glittery and dumb and AWESOME.
Now they're making them girly and lizardy and dumb and dumbbleahh.
Next they'll have a Tsuji Nozomi Pony.
I'm done.
Oh yeah. And I sneezed all over my dad today and got Halloween underwear.
Oops..
I want to b a MLP for Halloween. |
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| SOAPに帰ろう...って？ |
[Oct. 6th, 2009|10:52 pm] |
I owe a picture of my Arachnophobia shirt.
But for now, here is my leopard blazer and grey jeans.
The jeans have little silver button-up studs through the backs and detailing on the legs
(which you can kind of see in the pic).
I'm kneeling because it would have been to hard to see the leopard print from farther away.
And I'm in TJMaxx because I had to go there. To get underpants. With Eiffle Tower print.
So I would have the Eiffle Tower on my bum (nah but I love France).
So yeah. I also posted part 4 of Dada's article a minute ago friends only so go check it out...
The first thing I thought when I read it was,
"Oh thank GOD he washed them. He's better than 99% of the otaku out there!"
And Hanachan thought "O_o"
But it still holds that he is the awesomest whatever to roam the earth EVER.
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| 臭鼬鼠追い祭り |
[Oct. 4th, 2009|08:21 pm] |
Due to an inauspicious work schedule, darker winter hours,
and the the fact that I'm EXHAUSTED for no real reason,
I have not had the opportunity to go running in 4 days.
It sucks ;_;
I finally couldn't take it anymore and decided to go today after work.
By then it was completely dark, and the whole time I was running
all I could think was, "ARRGH! The skunks are going to chase me!!!"
I dunno why don't ask me.
So every time I heard a noise, I would freak out and think it was a skunk,
and that it was going to chase after me and spray me.
I'd hear a noise in the bush and think, "AAAHH SKUNKS ARE GOING TO CHASE ME!" and run away.
Or I'd hear a noise up in the tree and think, "AAAHH FLYING SKUNKS ARE GOING TO FALL ON ME!" and run away.
Which was fine, since I was already running.
I only got through Hot Gossip's "Break Me Into Little Pieces" and something completely un-motivational by Strawberry Switchblade before I had to go inside XD
On the bright side, I will have time tomorrow morning to go to the gym instead.
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That aside, I never thought I would own a pair of skinny jeans,
and I never ever thought I would own a pair of grey wash jeans...
but now I own not just skinny jeans, and not just grey jeans, but a pair of skinny grey jeans O_o
They're actually kinda hot and people keep stopping me to tell me how awesome they are.
I might post pics at some point. They have button up metal studs at the bottom.
See, I needed them to go with my leopard print blazer....
(don't worry, it's nice - I'm not going kogyaru on you all XD)
I also found this song by "Barbie" (Alexander Bard of Army of Lovers) which is awesome like my jeans. |
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| KI・RE・I |
[Oct. 1st, 2009|12:22 am] |
So I know I'm taking a while to finish with Dada's essay.
But see, at the same time that I got the Secret of Drag Queen book
(I can't believe I didn't know about it until now - I've GONE to DeptH)
I also got a book called "The Complete Guide to Suicide"
...and that is easier to understand than Dada. And slightly more useful.
In conclusion, sorry it's taking so long.
And I want these. Too bad they're used and like, $90.
They are my size though. Maybe I should just make them XD
When I was little I used to make roses out of toilet paper and give them to my mom.
She was really happy.
This can't be all that different. |
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| 見つけたぁ！ |
[Sep. 24th, 2009|12:42 am] |
Finally.
These are some pics I took while I was in boywear.
Friend edited out because we lost touch and I dunno if he'd want his pic all over the internetz.
Hanachan says I look funny.
I say whatever. At least they're here now so I can't lose them again.
For anyone who's interested for whatever reason.
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| 反社会的傾向 |
[Sep. 22nd, 2009|06:30 pm] |
For some reason or other people seem to want to talk to me over the past few days, like when I'm walking around the mall on break or just being...anywhere.
But I walk really fast and always have my iPod up on high so they don't really have a chance. Oh well.
Yesterday I think a gay couple wanted to talk to me about Kaya (O_o I know, weird right?),
and then today I think a guy wanted to ask if I was up to grabbing coffee at some point (O_o I know, weird right?)
But I'm not feeling all that talkative at the moment.
The other day in the parking lot there was an accident.
There were police cars, and an ambulance, and some sort of substance was scattered across the pavement.
It may have been bags, it may have been...parts; I couldn't get close enough to tell.
Because I was on break and I needed a friggin muffin.
For those who know me I didn't actually eat it.
I ate the burnt part on the top and sucked on the wrapper like a chupaenvoltorio (heehee).
Because that is my lot in life.
Anyhow, after I'd driven away, I realized I was smiling.
I hoped someone had died.
I still do.
I keep thinking that must make me a bad person somehow, but then I think, "why should it?"
In truth, I find death to be a rather happy thing.
But I figure I'm allowed to, as I am not afraid to die myself.
I think this is what they refer to as "antisocial" |
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